Hearing God In My Email

I turned on my computer this morning and checked my email. The last email I read today was from Air1.com. It was the daily bible verse from Tuesday. The verse was 1Samuel 16:7(NLT) which says: The Lord doesn’t see things the way you see them. People judge by outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart. That really reminded me of a certain person I’ve been hanging out with a lot lately. People are judging him based on his outward appearance and his past. They aren’t looking at the real changes I’ve seen in him in the short time I’ve been hanging out with him again. Why are we being hated on for hanging out. So he’s hurt me before but that doesn’t mean it’ll happen again. Sure we’re getting closer as friends every time we hang out but that’s because I’m willing to look past who he was to who he is on the inside. God has really been speaking to me about my willingness to accept people more openly. We’re called to love EVERYONE. That doesn’t mean we accept their sins. It means we love them and pray for them to see the mistakes they’re making and come to God seeking His forgiveness. The guy I’m hanging out with has proven to me that he’s worth me spending time with him by showing me that he has really changed and is still changing and growing. Change takes time and the mistakes he’s made are hard ones to move on from. I’ve got a similar past to him and I know what he’s going through. My message to the haters is this; remember where you were before and how God changed you. Remember how much it hurt to change and give up your past. Remember how good it felt when someone still accepted you while you and God were working things out. All I’m saying is that sometimes we need to step up and be the one person that person needs to help them stay on the narrow path.

And Then He Was There Again

Hello. I know you’re out there reading this somewhere. Life has been weird? I don’t know if that’s the right way to explain it. One crush turned into something like a big brother and another turned into a good friend that I can talk to despite what everyone else thinks of him. I’ve decided I don’t care what everyone else thinks. If people want to start rumors they can. I don’t care anymore. I like hanging out with my friends and having meaningful conversations that I don’t have to repeat every two minutes. Don’t get me wrong I do love all of my friends. There is such thing as too much of one person. Everyone else loves him and not the other one so I settle for hanging out with one while the other hangs out with the rest of the family. If you guys are reading this please know I love you both and pray that one day we can all hang out like the adults we are and forgive each other for all the crap that happened in the past. Drop your stupid grudges and forgive him already. People change. I can see that why can’t you guys see that? I love you all. This is getting stupid so I’m leaving you with this: one day you’ll realize how stupid this all was and know I was right. I won’t say I told you so because I won’t have to. I love you no matter how stupid you are.

Happy Birthday To Me

So that’s it. It’s offcial. I’m another year older. I’m not a whole lot wiser though. Oh well. I still feel about twice my age though. Meh. Could be worse. At least God has seen fit to allow me to still be alive. I really do thank Him everyday for allowing me to wake up breathing and alive. Then at night I thank Him for allowing me to make it safely through another day. I just pray that this year is one filled with many blessings for the people around me. I love you all.

Storm

I’ll say this upfront. I didn’t write this. Jason Wade from Lifehouse wrote these lyrics. It speaks to me right now so I’m posting the lyrics here. Again, I didn’t write this.

How long have I been in this storm?
So overwhelmed by the oceans shapeless form
Water's getting harder to tread
With these waves crashing over my head

If I could just see you
Everything would be all right
If I'd see you
This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost in your eyes
I know everything will be alright
I know everything is alright

I know you didn't bring me out here to drown
So why am I ten feet under and upside down
Barely surviving has become my purpose
Because I'm so used to living underneath the surface

If I could just see you
Everything would be all right
If I'd see you
This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost in your eyes
I know everything will be alright
I know everything is alright

Looking For Myself And Saying No

So I have been scaered of some things but I’ve decided that this year I want to find myself and where I really want to go in my life. The first new thing I’ve tried this year is looking for a new job. Looking for a new job is scary enough but the telling of the boss was super scary. Especially the part where she was trying to guilt me into not leaving my job. So bassically I need to find another job, give my two weeks notice, and cut off all ties to my current job. If you have any advice I’d love to hear it.

Happy New Year

Another year begins. I sit here ALONE AGAIN. I cry out to God and ask Him when my true love will come. Then I lean back into the arms of my Savior and remember that He is the one I search for. He will provide for all of my heart’s desires in His time. Happy new year everyone. May the new year find you where you need to be and doing what you should be doing. May it bring you love, friends, family, and most importantly closer to Jesus. Enjoy what comes this year and remember to rejoice always.

Merry Christmas

Another year is almost over. I hope and pray that your Christmas is filled with friends, family, and most importantly the Love of Christ. May His love fill the new year through with peace and happiness.

Twilight Movie Review

So after much hype and waiting I fianly saw Twilight the movie. There were a lot of people telling me that it was a lot better than they had expected it to be and that it was an awesome movie. I ended up waiting two extra weeks to see it because it only just got to the theater in the small town I live in. I had to stay away from anything that might spoil the movie for me for two extra weeks. The suspence was starting to kill me. I was so excited to finally see the movie after reading the book. I sat through the entire two hour movie trying not to pick it apart and enjoy it. In the end I was dissapointed though. I’ll still go and see the other three movies when they are released but I’d pick the books over the movies anyday.

It’s Amazing How Late It Really Is

So I’m back. After a break up and deleting several posts about him I’ve realized anyone reading this maybe wants an update. The posts from the last two and a half months have been deleted and I now have to finish my year differently. I think the next relationship I get into I’ll learn not to post about the person so much. That way it’ll be easier to get him out of my life if I need too. Anyways enough about me and my ranting stupidity. I hate that this year is almost over and the last post I posted was back in the summer. But this is me posting about why I the last post was so early in the year. There is no proof anyone reads this on a regular basis so it’s just me talking to myself these days.

Happily Ever After…What The?

So this morning I finished reading Breaking Dawn(the last book in the Twilight Saga). To say I was disappointed would be an understatement. After reading the entire saga I was not looking for a happy ending. It reminds me of the Harry Potter series. I was so mad when it ended with “All was well.” Nothing better than a slap in the face. Don’t get me wrong though. I love happy endings but not like that. I won’t say anything else except for the fact that I loved the book other wise. I’m not a spoiler. If you haven’t read the book or are just starting to read it forgive my rants.