Under The Influence Of Random Salad.

PS: If you know I am talking about you then let me know. I don’t know if you even care to read my blog or not but I’m interested in knowing if the people I sideways mention in here know I’m talking about them.

BAM!!!! Ha I win. I’m here thinking about how much I’ve changed and even though there are still feelings for certain people they are slightly different now that I’m different and so are they. I’m glad I have friends. They keep me sane.

Christmas is over for another year and another new year has begun. Where am I going? I don’t know but happy new year anyways. Love you all.

God loves me and my tattoos.

I’m so SICK!!!

Life is drifting back to that place it once was. Jesus is in my heart and now on my wrist. It hurt alot but I’m a big girl and I sucked it up during the pain. I can’t believe it’s nearly summer already. Yay summer.

So I’m back from outer-space. Did you miss me or were you too caught up in your perfect relationship and you perfect job to even notice I was gone. You don’t even talk to me anymore except to maybe say hi once in awhile. I don’t even know what’s going on with you guys anymore. And I’m the one coming back to planet earth? Maybe you need to come back down here for awhile and talk to some people outside of your bubble. I miss you guys.

I shall poke you in the eye. Do you even realize I’ve been missing? I’ve been floating in a beautiful fantasy world where vampires and werewolves are real. It’s so hard to put the books down. I’m still in a valley but at least I’m not in the pit in the valley anymore. I’m searching for my mountain so I reach the top and find a bit of heaven here on earth. I feel like the circles I’m running in are now running around me. I would dance in the rain except for the fact that it’s snowing and I’m not the biggest fan of snow. I love you guys. I miss everyone I used to know. Our glue left and now I’m all alone back where I started from. It’s so quiet since the glue and movie companion left this small town of mine. I miss them. I hope God calls them back here. If he’s not the one for me I really hope I’m patient enough for God to bring the right one to me. I’m so sore from being hurt by others before that I don’t know how much more pain I can endure. God I’m dancing here for You and praying that I’m patient enough to wait to find my mountain top.

So writer’s block is slowly going away. My feet are so sore. This game sucks. Why do I still feel so alone even when I’m with my friends? God where are You? I need You.

Hanging out with people. Keeping sane. Figuring out where my inspiration used to come from and wondering if now that it’s back in my life if I’ll get over my writers block this time. Tired of late nights but loving them at the same time. Thinking I need to get used to them. Realizing Thursday nights are my only free night unless anyone wants to hang out after I get off work at nine on Thursday nights. Loving friends and how I have people closer to my age to hang out with. If you’re reading this you all know who you are. You also know I respect your privacy enough to not mention real names. Strawberry doesn’t read this but he’ll probably regret telling us his work nickname if he does reads this post.

So I have writer’s block and it’s uber sock.

So I’ve had some conversations with some important people and have come to realize that everything will happen in time. Everything will come into the light at the appropriate time and not before. PS: I’m following the advice I received.

Happy New Year Everyone. May your new year bring you the peace and happiness and fellowship of good friends and family, much laughter, and your hearts desires.

One month till Christmas. One month till Christmas. Fa la la la la la.

I did it. I made it 21 days this time around. I feel sweetly awesometacular now. All I can say to those still struggling to go more than a couple of days is keep on swimming.

So I’ve had a nasty sinus cold for the last two weeks or so and I went to see the doctor tonight. Anyways it turns out it’s not a sinus cold but a full blown sinus infection. The antibiotics are huge. I have to take them twice a day for ten days. That should be fun. Anyways I should be better by the end of ten days. If not I’ll have to get more pills. Joy. LOL.

An update: I was doing pretty good with the no complaining thing. Then tonight after nine almost ten days I complained. So I’m now starting over again at zero. Hopefully I can beat my own record and make it all the way to twenty-one days this time. Keep praying to me in this endeavour. Also feel free to point out any complaining, criticizing, sarcasm, or anger you notice coming from me. Just remember that if you are also doing this to switch your own bracelet before doing so.

So I’m doing it. I’m trying to take the 21 day challenge to not complain. And the deal is you get this bracelet and if you complain you switch which wrist it’s on and start counting all over again. It could be a long 21 days I think. Anyway pray for me and wish me luck. Later.

So now that I’ve had what was left remaining of a molar after a root canal and several fillings(which all fell out in the end anyways) pulled I’m feeling much better. I haven’t had to take my pain killers since Friday(always a good thing since I was pretty stoned on them anyways) and my face hurts less and less each day. I was able to sleep on my left side the night after getting the tooth pulled too. That was a good thing because I’m so used to sleeping on my left side as it is. Anyways my face and jaw hurt so bad for the first couple of days that I was taking pain killers as often as I was allowed to. Jacky wouldn’t let me work around customers on Friday. She said I was to stoned. My stitches are disappearing nicely too. That’s a pretty good thing if you ask me. The only thing is that I still can’t drink through a straw and there are still some solid foods that are to hard for me to eat right now. I can’t wait until I can eat cookies again. MMM cookies…lol.

I wants my cookie. Where’s me cookie? How come I don’t gots no cookie? Moo. Mes be wanting sum cookies.

Eating animal crackers in my room is the best way to start my morning I think. At least it would be if the stupid cat would SHUT UP already. I’m catching up on my daily bible reading and hoping to be able to finish this month’s schedule ahead of time. So there evil pie face.

I’m finally here. It’s way to hot here still though. I’m tired and hot and sweaty and sticky and stinky. I can’t wait until I get my ceiling fan. That will help sooo much. Anyways; glad to be in the new house and looking forward to some more days off next week. Post later. Byes for now peoples.

So right now I’m sitting here thinking. Thinking about what though? What to write and who is going to read this. I was told by a friend that I should start a blog and get my work out there. I did that and I’ve already started adding some of my old work. i don’t often write stuff that I consider shareable though. It may be awhile between posts. Anyways if anyone is wondering about the title of my blog there isn’t much to explain about it. When I was sitting here late last night I was at a loss of inspiration on a blog title. Then I looked over my shoulder and saw my tattoo. The blue butterfly on my shoulder was perfect. So henceforth I shall be known as the English Butterfly and these here posts shall be known as my memories. And that is what the title of my blog means.

So then I said to him that I was writing new stuff. I had been writing at work. I stopped just before he and his friends had gotten into the store. The new stuff got posted today. He STILL hasn’t posted his latest and greatest work yet. Punk kid. LOL.

And then I was on MSN and I was telling him about how I’m seriously tired of this weather. Grr I hate the heat. And this morning my mom got so into cleaning and packing that she forgot about me. It was a good thing I wasn’t late for work considering I HAVE to open the freakin’ store. So annoying.